Direction

Have you ever found yourself going in one direction only to end up in a different place?  This place could be a physical location, mental state of mind, or an emotional enlightenment.  It continues to surprised me when this occurs in my life.  For those that know me I am a planner.  My state of income demands the type of planning that allows for sudden and sometimes drastic change.  I am a "dot" your I's and "cross" your T's kind of girl.  Over the years I have had to become more "flexible" when life demands this.  Looking back over my experiences so far I can say that the direction of physical locations have directly impacted my life.  Having moved a few times during childhood.  Then from the northeast to the southeast during my late teens.  The climate, culture, and local cuisine have contributed to how I find my self now.  To be honest I can say that I have been known to try and change the direction from time to time.  Only to discover that I eventually end right back in the direction that I was trying to veer away from.  Some folks say that karma is in action.  I think that our mental state of mind is equally related to our age.  In the idea that our desires, wishes, and aspirations all change in direction the more that we experience life.  Some folks I have noticed do "mature" at a greater speed than others.   Personally I hope to continue to see what direction life will direct me, not wanting to "mature" to quickly.  The emotional direction is a harder path for me ..... some folks have called me stoic.  Yesterday I had read on FB that a classmate of mine had died.  The first emotion that I felt was "wow" he was to young to have found himself in that direction.  I have some dear and treasured friends that are in their late 80's and early 90's.  Feeling like he had been cheated in a sense.  Then the second emotion that came to me was more of a thought or hope that life had allowed him to discover many directions in his life.  Even though we had been classmates from 7th to 11th grade I don't feel like I really knew him.  I was a shy and mostly keep to my circle of friends.  I do remember that he had the most wonderful smile.  The kind of smile you felt was truly coming from his heart.  Hopefully that during his life that smile keep him in a direction of discovery, love, and joy.  Sorry to have heard of your recent direction  .... John "Jack" Robie.  Your smile will always be remembered!